Friday, August 2, 2013

English Lyrics: Poison by Primary (feat. E-sens of Supreme Team)





Poison by Primary feat. E-sens of Supreme Team


The rap part was penned by E-sens and was written during his hiatus following his marijuna scandal. It is a sincere expression of his personal struggles. 

The song itself highlight the lyrics and the music was created only to add a layer to its musicality.




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Poison by Primary feat. E-sens of Supreme Team English Lyrics


Time passes, dust settles in my memory
Time passes, poison builds up in my body
Now, all I want is to be free
I am half dead, everyone can see 
I couldn’t see it with my own eyes but I believe it
It sucked me dry and I felt it
I remember how I was in the beginning
I threw away all the things that were rotting
Now, I need to hold onto the things I was losing

It's has been a long journey
I clecnched my fist when they said all I needed was to believe faithfuly
I thrased everyone, they look like losers and scared 
But in reality, it was them who scared me
I thought I didn't have a choice but to eventually become what I see
So I just faced and lived reality 
Reality says it wants to run but staying still, it is easy
Every time, reality lies to you and me

I relax because of the comfort of this cigarette
Whenever they say “you’ll know when you grow up” don't fret
It is only to hypnotize you to a lie, it's all you get
Age won't make you wiser, it's just shit
You'll live with the peace a dog has on a leash
It's all I've learned 
Gathering courage is as scary as the look at other people's eyes
I got so sick of everyone so I told them all to get lost in all their lies
My faith lead me home where I can lie

If only I could get to a place that will hone me
I will be better than you, you'll see
You are like an empty shell because you gave up on your dreams
So you can laugh to fulfill your empty whims
You can hide your failures by worrying about me 
If you don’t wanna get hurt, go on silently
They say that it’s common sense
The world's favorite medicine is Cowardice
I respect everyone who was scarred to save you,
I bless everyone who survived you

I once fell into a deep hole
In front of family and friends I pretended to be whole
My own disgust or pride is mixed up in my core
I hated looking at the eyes of the person in the mirror
I was losing my passion
I was doing what I hated, losing my vision
My passion became work, I wanted to die
I felt my emotions are thoughts were all a lie
I saw the damage I caused me but I couldn't kill myself
I could throw everything
And none of it would matter, none is wealth
I was desperate feel peace 
But peace ran away from me
I screamed to hide my anxiety
I made up stories to cover the pain
I wandered aimlessly
I don't even remember if there were people trying to help me
I didn’t believe in a God, you see
but my lack of faith still didn't bring me the courage to kill me
I searched and searched for answers
Until my conscience got sick
No matter how long I sleep, I never got any rest
The cage of restlessness crushe my youth
When my handcuffs went away, so did my chances. Temptations too its place.
I need to leave everything behind so I can go back to the start
I need to hold on to everything that is left

When I rush to chase myself, I keep forgetting which one is me
When I rush to chase myself, I keep forgetting which one is me
If you need to stop, then stop now
We've already lost many things that matter in our lives
When I rush to chase myself, I keep forgetting which one is me


Hangul Lyrics


시간 지나 먼지 덮인 많은 기억
시간 지나면서 내 몸에 쌓인 독 
자유롭고 싶은 게 전보다 훨씬 더 심해진 요즘 
난 정확히 반쯤 죽어있어 
눈에 보이는 건 아니지만 난 믿은 것 
그게 날 이끌던 걸 느낀 적 있지 분명
그 시작을 기억해 
나를 썩히던 모든 걸 비워내 
붙잡아야지 잃어가던 것 

지금까지의 긴 여행 
꽉 쥔 주먹에 
신념이 가진 것의 전부라 말한 시절엔 
겁먹고 낡아 버린 모두를 비웃었지 
반대로 그들은 날 겁 줬지 
나 역시 나중엔 
그들같이 변할 거라고 어쩔 수 없이
그러니 똑바로 쳐다보라던 현실
그는 뛰고 싶어도 앉은 자리가 더 편하대
매번 그렇게 나와 너한테 거짓말을 해

그 담배 같은 위안 땜에 좀먹은 정신 
어른이 돼야 된다는 말 뒤에 숨겨진 건 
최면일 뿐 절대 현명해 지고 있는 게 아냐 
안주하는 것뿐 줄에 묶여있는 개마냥 
배워가던 게 그런 것들뿐이라서 
용기 내는 것만큼 두려운 게 남들 눈이라서 

그 꼴들이 지겨워서 그냥 꺼지라 했지 
내 믿음이 이끄는 곳 그 곳이 바로 
내 집이며 내가 완성되는 곳 
기회란 것도 온다면 
옆으로 치워놓은 꿈 때문에 
텅 빈 껍데기뿐인 너 보단 나에게 
마음껏 비웃어도 돼 

날 걱정하는 듯 말하며 니 실팰 숨겨도 돼 
다치기 싫은 마음뿐인 넌 가만히만 있어 
그리고 그걸 상식이라 말하지 
비겁함이 약이 되는 세상이지만 
난 너 대신 흉터를 가진 
모두에게 존경을 이겨낸 이에게 축복을

깊은 구멍에 빠진 적 있지 
가족과 친구에겐 문제없이 사는 척
뒤섞이던 자기 혐오와 오만 
거울에서 조차 날 쳐다보는 눈이 싫었어 

열정의 고갈 
어떤 누구보다 내가 싫어하던 그 짓들 
그게 내 일이 된 후엔 죽어가는 느낌뿐 
다른 건 제대로 느끼지 못해 
뒤틀려버린 내 모습 봤지만 
난 나를 죽이지 못해 
그저 어딘가 먼 데로 
가진 걸 다 갖다 버린대도 

아깝지 않을 것 같던 그 때는 
위로가 될만한 일들을 
미친놈같이 뒤지고 지치며 
평화는 나와 관계없는 일이었고 
불안함 감추기 위해 목소리 높이며 
자존심에 대한 얘기를 화내며 지껄이고 
헤매었네 어지럽게 

누가 내 옆에 있는지도 모르던 때
그 때도 난 신을 믿지 않았지만 
망가진 날 믿을 수도 없어 
한참을 갈필 못 잡았지 

내 의식에 스며든 질기고 지독한 감기
몇 시간을 자던지 개운치 못한 아침
조바심과 압박감이 찌그러트려놓은 젊음 
거품, 덫들, 기회 대신 오는 유혹들 
그 모든 것의 정면에서 다시 처음부터
붙잡아야지 잃어가던 것

급히 따라가다 보면 
어떤 게 나인지 잊어가 점점

급히 따라가다 보면 
어떤 게 나인지 잊어가 점점

멈춰야겠으면 지금 멈춰
우린 중요한 것들을 너무 많이 놓쳐

급히 따라가다 보면 
어떤 게 나인지 잊어가 점점



Romanized Lyrics



Sigan jina meonji deopin manheungieok
Siganjinamyeonseo nae mome ssahin dok
Jayuropgo sipeunge jeonboda hwolssin deosimhaejin yojeumnan jeonghwakhi banjjeum jugeoisseo
Nune boineun geon anijiman nan mideun geot
Geuge nal ikkeuldeon geol neukkin jeok itji bunmyeong
Geu sijageul gieokhae nareul sseokhideon modeun geol biwonae
Butjabayaji irheogadeon geot


Jigeumkkajiui gin yeohaeng
Kkwak jwin jumeogesinnyeomi gajingeosui jeonbura malhan sijeoren
Geommeokgo nalgabeorin modureul biuseotji
Bandaero geudeureun nal geop jwotji
Na yeoksinajungen geudeulgachi byeonhal georago eojjeol su eobsi
Geureoni ttokbaro chyeodaboradeon hyeonsil
Geuneun ttwigo sipeodo anjeun jariga deo pyeonhadae
Maebeon geureoke nawa neohante geojitmareul hae


Geu dambaegateun wianttaeme jommeogeun jeongsin
Eoreuni dwaeya doendaneun mal dwie sumgyeojin geonchoemyeonilppun jeoldae hyeonmyeonghae jigo inneunge anya
Anjuhaneun geotppun jure mukkyeoinneun gaemanyang
Baewogadeonge geureon geotdeulppuniraseo
Yongginaeneun geotmankeum duryeounge namdeul nuniraseo
Geu kkoldeuri jigyeowoseo geunyang kkeojira haetji
Nae mideumi ikkeuneun got geu gosi baro nae jibimyeonaega wanseongdoeneun got
Gihoeran geotdoondamyeon yeopeuro chiwonoheun kkum ttaemune teong bin kkeopdegippunin neo bodan naege
Maeumkkeot biuseodo dwae
Nal geokjeonghaneundeut malhamyeo ni silpaereul sumgyeodo dwae
Dachigi sirheun maeumppunin neon gamanhiman isseo
Geurigo geugeol sangsigira malhaji
Bigeophamiyagi doeneun sesangijiman
Nan neo daesin hyungteoreul gajin moduege jongyeongeul igyeonaen iege chukbogeur


Gipeun gumeonge ppajin jeok itji
Gajokgwa chinguegen munjeeobsi saneuncheok
Dwiseokkideon jagi hyeomowa oman
Geoureseo jochanal chyeodaboneun nuni sirheosseo
Yeoljeongui gogal
Eotteon nuguboda naega sirheohadeon geu jitdeul
Geuge nae iri doen huen jugeoganeun neukkimppun
Dareun geon jedaero neukkiji motae
Dwiteullyeobeorin nae moseup bwatjiman nan nareul jugiji motae
Geujeo eodinga meon dero gajin geol da gatda beorindaedo
Akkapji anheul geot gatdeon geu ttaeneun
Wiroga doelmanhan ildeureul michinnomgachi dwijigojichimyeo
Pyeonghwaneun nawa gwangyeeomneun irieotgo
Buranham gamchugi wihae moksori nopimyeojajonsime daehan yaegireul hwanaemyeo jikkeorigohemaeeonne eojireopge
Nuga nae yeope inneunjido moreudeon ttae
Geu ttaedo nansineul mitji anhatjiman manggajinnal mideul sudo eobseo hanchameul galpi mot jabatji
Nae uisige seumyeodeun jilgigo jidokhan gamgi
Myeotsiganeul jadeonji gaeunchi motan achim
Jobasimgwa apbakgami jjigeureoteuryeonoheun jeormeum
Geopum, deotteul, gihoe daesin oneun yuhokdeul
Geu modeun geosui jeongmyeoneseo dasi cheoeumbuteo
Butjabayaji irheogadeon geot


Geuphi ttaragadabomyeon eotteonge nainji ijeoga jeomjeom
Meomchwoyagesseumyeon jigeum meomchwo

Urin jungyohan geotdeureul neomu manhi nochyeo

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